...I have gone back to work. I got a position with South Jersey Mom Magazine as an ad sales associate, and will also be doing some writing for the magazine. It's part time, and I can work from home, so while sales is something new for me, it was too good of an opportunity to pass up, particularly while my future with Pete is in such a precarious place. I am enjoying the chance to speak with adults in a work setting, and I am loving the chance to create events and marketing ideas. It's a bit of a challenge to work while PJ is awake, but thankfully, I don't mind staying up late!
...We are on Night 3 of PJ being completely pacifier-free. I know, I know. A Goddamn Nearly-Four-Year-Old shouldn't have had a paci that long, anyway. And we're going to pay for it plenty when the time comes to correct his very cute, but wicked , overbite. It just wasn't a battle I was ready to fight until now. It's Parenting Fail #34,294,901, but it's being rectified now. For the third night in a row. Booyah.
|Trying out the phones in the Family Center!|
...Pete and I. Eh. I 'm not sure what to say in terms of a status update. We've been separated nearly three months, and while we are both working hard to try and make some repairs to our marriage, I can't say that I know for sure what the resolution will be. Last week, we spent some time alone for the first time since we decided to separate. It was just dinner, but it was a start. It was strained, and my nerves were right at the surface. The longer our separation goes on, the farther I feel from my marriage and so much of my life. But I don't know how to stand down and take a step towards a resolution, one way or another. It's something I am trying to work on, with our therapist and within my own reflections and self-examination. But I am not giving up, even though it would be so much easier then all of this work. I think it's worth it.
...And the thing that's helping me get through this very, very strange summer (aside from PJ, my amazing sister, and all of my friends who love and support us so much and all the time)? Honey Boo Boo. Believe it. While not at all a fan of Toddlers and Tiaras, I have grown to love this sweet little redneck family. They are not, uh, super classy, but they love each other and do their best to work as a family at being happy. It makes me laugh until I cry every single time and it's almost as good as therapy because, really? How can be in a bad mood after watching Mama June let loose at her bachelorette party?? Horrified? A little, but not in a bad mood!!
...Last, a few weeks ago an impromptu picnic on the banks of the Delaware River speared some of the most lovely moments we have spent in a while. Friends gathered on blankets on a muggy, late summer night to eat, talk, and watch our children play. It was an absolutely beautiful evening, so good for my soul. You hardly had to take the time to focus your camera; you simply needed to point it at all of the lovely and remember to press the shutter:
|No filter used, it was really this beautiful.|