Tuesday, January 31, 2012

"It's such a funny thing how nothing's funny when it's you..."

How can it only be Tuesday? The last bits of Tuesday, granted, but still. How can it only be Tuesday?

Today was another freakishly warm January day (weirdest. winter. ever.) and unless you count PJ's alternately cranky/rammy outing at story hour today in which he shotgunned between crying and sprinting about the room stealing other kids snacks, it was pretty normal. Therapy this morning followed by a playdate with friends, the previously-mentioned story hour, dinner, bath and bedtime. My brain was a little more scrambled than usual due to the fact that I haven't been sleeping well.

I think it was that lingering fatigue that made PJ's Story Hour Meltdown seem more discouraging than normal. I don't think his behavior was much more then could be expected from a two-year old who didn't take a nap today (WTF, toddler?) and yet knowing that didn't stop me from letting a bad 40 minutes with my son completely get into my head. With all of the questions surrounding PJ right now (Autistic? Aspergers? Just weird?) it's difficult to discern what's a normal, two-year-old meltdown and what night be something more. And since I'm superduperneurotic, I become convinced that he's superflappyautistic every time he turns down his peas.

I know. I know.

Thankfully, story hour was just a bad half-hour in what wasn't a terrible day. If something is not right with PJ or if everything is "normal" and "fine", the tantrums and little things aren't what define my sweet Boy. He's handsome, happy, smart, funny and sassy and sometimes, I just need to perspective of A Few Hours Later to help me realize it.

What I need even more is some sleep!! So, with that...

Good night!

Monday, January 30, 2012

"You know it's true that you are blessed and lucky..."

Oh, the days!

They have been so full! Pete had a nice stretch of time off and it was wonderful! We were able to eat dinner together as a family, spend time with our Boy, and get lots done around our place (although not nearly enough of the latter, of course). He goes back to work tomorrow and I have to admit it's going to be a bummer to send him off.

Our time has been so busy and there are so many things I have to talk about. The first thing is that I need to finish the post about PJ's 2nd birthday and what a wonderful day it was! And since then, PJ's speech delay has become less of a worry although he's still way behind for his age. PJ has a lot of work to do, but he's learning new words and skills every single day and we are so, so proud of our sweet baby boy!

My dad had been out of work since shortly after PJ was born, but last week was offered a job! That was exciting enough, but even more exciting is that he won't have to live away from home during the week as he did with his last few positions. The job is close by so he can commute from home! Today was his first day and I know he feels wonderful about being back to work. He gets it from his mother, my Mom-Mom, who retired in her 80's! I should only have such drive and motivation!

I can't believe we are already nearly done with January. I feel as if I have accomplished so much this month and at the same time can't figure out how I let the month slide by without gaining some control over my goals. Still, it's done now, so all I can do is keep plugging away and hoping for the grace to get by! It's such an emotional time for us as we navigate all of PJ's therapies and hope to see improvements and in all of the overwhelming intensity of it all, it's easy for other things to slip. My friendships, my interests, my housekeeping skills (ahem)... it sometimes feels difficult to keep up.

Still, we keep our nose to the grindstone and our hearts in what's important and hope we break even in the end.

For now? It's bedtime!

Good night.


Wednesday, January 18, 2012

"It's like a work of art that never gets to see the light..."

Oh my! It's 2012!

I was pretty much Miss Delinquent Blogger, 2011- my crown is made of rhinestones and shame. And here we are, already halfway through January and this is the first time I have sat down to write.

Still, I am hoping to correct that this year. Even though very few people actually read my blog (and thanks and pity to those who do, LOL!) it's always been a very cathartic experience for me to write. I enjoy it and it makes me feel good, so it's something I should be doing as part of my Mental Health Maintenance routine! And trust me. I need a LOT of maintenance! I need a Brain Dyson.

Between wrangling a two-year old (birthday post to come, I swear!), managing his therapy schedule (yeah, I'll blog about that, too!), keeping house (...from completely piling up with shit as opposed to just it's usual state of disarray), and expending energy to keep from eating all of the things (I'm a heifer), I find that the time just slips away. Before I know it, the Flyers game is over and I forgot to put the stuff in the washer into the dryer and it's time for bed. Oh, and I'm sure that somewhere in there, I spend some time with my husband.


What I'm getting that is that I just haven't been able to gather up the brainpower needed to sit down and blog. Instead, the things that I would normally vent here just build up. It's super healthy. Not. So I resolve am going to try and rectify it.

It's not helping that I am finally on Pinterest! Oh. My. Word. What a timesuck! Still, I am having a blast creating a board with ideas for updating PJ's bedroom! I think that Pinterest is going to at once revitalize me and destroy me. Either way, be sure to follow me! ;-)

For now, it's nice that the holidays (though wonderful) are over and that we can get back to our normal routine!