Tuesday, August 31, 2010

"Say, say, say what you want..."

Life is full of weirdness right now.

Even my sweet Boy is making weird faces.

This picture makes me laugh.
We just need so badly to catch a break, and in the meantime, it's hard to keep my mind on anything besides taking care of PJ. Seriously, I'm down to updating my Facebook status once a day because I just have nothing to say. Once. A. Day. That's saying something about my state of mind when updating people on the minutiae of my life doesn't hold any lure for me. Usually, I need the world to know that PJ just took a bath, poop, or otherwise. ;-) Either way, thank goodness I have PJ to keep me here on the ground because otherwise, I feel like I could just float away.

We just need things to take a nice turn for us, and it will all be okay.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

"Give up the world, give up your life, cause you cannot fight the television..."

Watching this years Emmy's reminds me of just how much I love television! Seriously. I love, love, love television. The Daily Show. NBC Evening News with Brian Williams. Jersey Shore. Say Yes to the Dress. I can watch TV for hours and hours and hours upon end and feel no shame for it! Especially since I read alot of books, too! ;-)

The funny thing is that some of my most vivid, colorful, meaningful memories revolve around what I was watching on TV during that particular moment in time.

Watching "Golden Girls" during sleepovers at Mom-Mom's house, all of us tucked into her big bed.

Sitting in my classroom at Archway, with stunned, behaviorally-challenged students surrounding me as we watched the second tower of the World Trade Center fall on September 11th.

My high school friend David coming over to watch Beavis and Butthead with me.

Staying up late to watch west-coast Flyers games with my dad, trying to be as quiet as possible while we cheered and/or cursed our favorite team! Staying up late to watch Remote Control when my mom came home from her shifts as a volunteer EMT.

Watching the funeral of Ryan White with tears streaming down my cheeks, so sad to see this brave young man slayed by such a stupid disease, so inspired by his amazing life. Wanting to make some kind of change myself.

Going from big fan to Worshiper of Elton John after his MTV Unplugged special.

At Connie Macs watching the Phillie's win the 2008 World Series as champagne rained down on me!

Countless hours of Sesame Street, The Cosby Show, Dial MTV. Year after year of Dick Clark's Rockin' New Year's Eve.

And of course, all those awards shows.

So yes. I am sure that I have lost more brain cells then I care to imagine due to all of those hours in front of the boob tube. Still, it's a fair trade for all of the memories I have along with it.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

"To everything there is a season..."

I spent today trapped in our apartment.

Literally.

The stairs to our door are being rebuilt, and in order to do so the old ones had to be torn down, so without stairs, it was hard to get out! Of course, in all honesty, I could have climbed out the window and down the fire escape, but that wasn't happening! So, PJ and I hung around here today!

And it was a LONG day! After staying up later then usual last night (Gosh. Darn. Standing!) and then getting up superduperearly this morning, it made for alot of time to kill! PJ only used two brief naps to kill part of his day but thankfully, his Mama was in a motivated mood and managed to get alot of stuff done around the house! There's still a bit left, but for the first time in a long time I feel like I'm on the brink of being caught up.

Our mundane, day-to-day lives aside,(or, I guess, despite it) I can't believe how fast this summer has flown! Next week is the beginning of September! We are on the brink of a new season, a new school year, the last fourth of the year!

Bring. It. On.

Friday, August 27, 2010

"That's why we pray! Praaaaaaaaaay..."

Oh friends.

It seems like a few doors have opened up in Pete's quest for a nursing job (the quest which has officially been going on for a full year now.

Please, please, after you get done praying for the super-important stuff, just slip one in for us.

It would be super-appreciated.

...and if you're really feeling ambitious, please pray for PJ to acquire the skill of getting back down after he pulls up in his crib. Because he hasn't quite mastered that skill yet, so he pulls up, gets stuck there and cries pitifully until we rescue him!

Thank you for your support.



(hee, hee..."thank you for your support reminded me of this! i'm so weird!)


:-)  

"Baby, baby, I'm taken with the notion to love you with the sweetest of devotion..."

Note: I was feeling horrible yesterday with stomach cramps! Otherwise, I would have written this post yesterday!


Dear PJ,

Oh my goodness, my dear, sweet baby Boy! You turned 9 months old yesterday!

This past month has brought the most changes, all of them coming fast and furious! You have recovered fully and beautifully from your surgery! You started out the month not yet crawling and now? You're crawling, standing, dancing, jumping and turning (while holding on, not completely on your own yet!)! The days of putting you down someplace and finding you still in that same place are officially gone! When you greet me in the morning, your little face peeks out at me from over your crib rail, instead of looking up at me from your bed!

You have also officially given up on pureed foods! I can still get you to eat fruit purees and rice cereal, but veggies and "dinner" foods? Fuhgeddaboudit! Instead, you happily nomnomnom on peas, green beans,  carrots, grapes, apples, chicken, noodles, bagels and potato, cut up into baby-sized bits but BIG PEOPLE FOOD nonetheless!

You are very into your toys, and can play with them for hours! Your favorite is your Sing Along Stage- you love to dance and sing to yourself in the mirror ("bop bop bop!")! You also love your Sesame Street radio and the remote control that Mandy and Taylor gave you (it's a real remote, by the way! He's obsessed with them and my friends had an extra!)! And your love affair with your Exersaucer continues!

PJ, you're personality is shining through more and more every day! You are such a smiley little guy, and you love your friends and family so much! You especially light up when you see your cousins, which makes your Mama so happy! You seems to love everybody (even Gordie!!!) and everybody just loves you back! You are a very, very lucky little boy in that sense, and your Mama and Daddy are so happy that your life is filled with such wonderful people!

All of that said, and no offense, but you still nap like crap! :-)

We can't believe nine months has gone by, and we have loved you for every second of it, and will love you for every second of your life after! What do we tell you all the time? That you are the very best Boy-Boy in the whole world and your Mama and Daddy love you so much!

Bring it on, 9th month! Can't wait to see what's in store!

With our love,
Mama and Daddy

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

"There's gotta be more to life..."

Here's the short version of what we've been up to:

  • chasing PJ! He's everywhere all of a sudden! Crawling, rolling, trying to stand on his own! It's unacceptable, is what it is.
  • enjoying our new carpet, and constantly picking at the little pills it makes! I've never actually had brand-new carpet before, so I didn't know it sheds!
  • trying to find something PJ will eat without raspberry-ing it all over me! He is soooooooo over puree, it's not even funny! We've tried chicken, grapes, carrots, peas, green beans, and baked potato, and as long as he gets to use his own hands to stuff it into his own mouth, he'll eat it!
  • ...and let's not even discuss the Cheerio's! He actually shouts with glee when I take that big, yellow box out of the cabinet in the morning!
  • praying that some of the new job leads Pete got will pan out. Seriously. Praying. Hard. Super hard. Really.
  • Not getting much sleep. PJ has been crazed at night! Could a tooth finally be forthcoming???
And that's pretty much all of the excitement we can handle! Always happy to bring you up to speed! ;-)

Saturday, August 21, 2010

"What if God was one of us?"

Today was almost perfect from beginning to end! It started out with everyone sleeping in, which was wonderful! PJ's schedule has been a mess since his surgery, and tossing in the sleepover at Nan and Pop's didn't help, so getting rest was a positive for him! He also took a long, late morning nap in his own crib! Plus, he took an afternoon nap!

I know, right? And the ground didn't feel chilly today or anything!

We just spent the day at home, playing and cuddling and watching PJ flaunt his newfound skills ( pulling up, sitting up, feeding himself peas...). It's amazing how enthralled we can be with watching PJ, he makes us laugh and every new things he does! And yes, I realize that this sounds boring to anyone that isn't Pete or myself! To the untrained eye, PJ is merely a cute, sweet baby, but to us, he's completely and utterly fascinating!

Pete had to work (Boo.) so PJ and I met Marla, Steve, and their cute, sassy niece Liv at the Pop Shop for some dinner (thanks again, Mar and Steve!!!)! PJ was flirting with the cutest little girl! They were gabbing back and forth earnestly in baby speak- it was pretty funny! We ate yummy food, enjoyed each other's company, and then walked back home! And now, Pete's on his way home from work and I'll have both my Boys with me again!

And there you have it. A summary of a day that makes for a yawn-y blog post, but warmed my heart in the best of ways! :-)

Now I am going to watch "Jersey Shore" with my husband! Yup. Jersey Shore.

Goodnight.

Oh, wait! Don't go yet! I forgot- a few nights ago, PJ and I went with Shelly and the gals to get ice cream at a cute place called Kayla's Kustard Korner! They were having a fundraiser for the Oaklyn Fire Department, of which Pete is a member! We had delicious ice cream and enjoyed the nice (if slightly muggy evening! PJ LOVES being with his cousins, as this photograph proves...

Okay. That is all.

Friday, August 20, 2010

"Home, where my thought's escaping..."

We are super-tired here at the Latini home, but happy to be home nonetheless!

Yesterday and today were busy- yesterday we had to empty out our living room for a brand-new carpet to be installed today! We didn't want to have to carry too many things down to the basement and then back up, so we just dispersed our belongings into the other rooms of our apartment! That strategy was great, except it left us no room to move! So we headed to Nan and Pop's (Pete's parents) to spend the night! We had an amazing night with family, and PJ had a blast playing with his cousins Sarah, Riley, and Emilia! Now that PJ is so mobile, he was able to chase him cousins around, laughing his head off the whole time, it was so sweet! PJ's face seriously lights up when he sees his cousins! After all of that fun, everyone fell into bed at Nan and Pop's and drifted off to sleep!

Well, until 1am, when PJ decided the party wasn't over and extended it by three hours!

Gah.

The good things is that PJ didn't keep my in-laws up! I guess when you're the eighth grandchild to spend the night, your cries of displeasure at being in a crib can be tuned out! Had he made a more emergent type of cry, it would have elicited a more rapid response from the Grandparent Emergency System. At any rate, Pete and I woke up exhausted, but excited to know the carpet was being put in! Pete came home to supervise the install and then put the main pieces of furniture back into the room, and PJ and I spent the day relaxing at my in-laws! And we had a wonderful time, but it still felt good to come home! Now, PJ is in his own little bed and I am sitting on our pretty, cushy new carpet!

Soon, I will head off to bed myself, ready to catch up on some sleep and think about all of the things I need to put back tomorrow! :-)

Night!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

"With all your faults, I love you still..."

I am messy.

I tend to talk very loudly.

I don't pluck my eyebrows enough.

I have a potty mouth.

I get terrible road rage.
 (not get-out-a-gun-type rage, but enough that one of the girls I used to watch totally dimed me out by saying "Brie calls the other drivers retards". I was duly ashamed.)

I always forget to bring my water glass from the night before to the sink before I bring put a fresh glass on my nightstand before bed, and allow a collection to develop.

I am exceedingly overprotective of my son.

I am not always a good wife/mother/friend/sister/daughter.

I am addicted to my iTouch.

I am a horrible housekeeper.

I let my car get down to fumes before I get gas.

I would sometimes rather read a book then talk to people.

I have a thousand other flaws, too many to list on a blog.

Still, despite all of that...

I am married to a wonderful, patient, kind and hard-working man.

My son is sweet, happy, healthy and content. He wants for nothing and is loved by everybody.

I have a family- the type of family that I could call upon any member at any given time and they would be there in a flash, ready to engulf me in love.

I am surrounded by the most amazing group of friends, who warm my heart every day with their support and companionship.  

I have a place to lay my head, to call home, where my sweet little family goes to sleep together every night.

Despite all that is "wrong" with me, I have all of this. So, maybe there's not so many things wrong with me, as there are reasons to be loved that far surpass our flaws.

Aren't we lucky?

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

"I'll be seeing you in all the old, familiar places..."

The past few days have been full of grandmothers. Which is a weird thing to notice, I guess, but for me, that's how it's been.

It started with Preston and Steve (you can Podcast them if you don't live in the Philly area, they are hysterical!) on WMMR. They do an event every year called the Granny Grand Prix, in which grandmothers race against each other in a go-cart race! They spend all week interviewing the Granny's and then held the race on Friday! The race is a riot but the interviews are even better- one sassy Granny after the next! One lady said she was an old BAG: Bad Ass Granny! HA! Loves it! I listened to all of the interviews leading up to the event while I fed PJ his breakfast all week!

I also stumbled upon this beautiful post by a Mommy blogger I had never heard of before- someone re-tweeted one of her tweets (you know how that goes) and I found myself reading her story about her "Momsie", sharing both her grief in her loss and her sweet memories. It was a lovely, honest post- would that I could write as well! It brought me to tears.

In the midst of our normal routine, we are also planning PJ's baby naming ceremony. Because of his hypospadias, PJ wasn't able to have a traditional bris. But, bris or no bris, a Jewish child receives a Hebrew name. Naming for deceased relatives is a Jewish tradition, and of course, there are a number of people that PJ never got to know that we would like to honor in our choice of a name. I can't let on yet what name we chose, but in our choosing, my own Mom-Mom was in my heart. In our very last conversation, she hinted at what names she would like if Pete and I had a baby. Of course, as we had that conversation, PJ was forming the tiniest spark of life inside of me, just as Mom-Mom's spark was going out.

I knew that when we lost my Mom-Mom, we would continue to see reminders of her everywhere. I mean, how could we not? She was so lovely, so strong, so integral in our lives. I wasn't, however, prepared for the emotional impact of those reminders, even over a year after her passing. Particularly when I see her face in my son's.


 

I love him so.
And I miss her so.
How I would have loved to love them together,
but where Mom-Mom left off,
PJ began.
And how lucky I am to have had them both!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

"Can you tell me how to get, how to get to Sesame Street?"

Oh, my gosh! Another absolutely gorgeous night! It's the perfect follow-up to a day spent visiting with a friend I hadn't seen in forever!

I am working on a post for tomorrow- there's been so much on my mind the past few days. I was going to finish it tonight, but a certain, handsome baby Boy whose name I won't mention -aHEM, peterjosephjunior!- was super-duper wired and decided to take over an hour to falls asleep! So, his Mama is now exhausted!

So, for now, enjoy this Sesame Street version of one of my favorite shows, Law & Order, SVU!

Friday, August 13, 2010

"I simply love you more then I love life itself..."

PJ loves Chick-fil-A

Oh, what a wonderful day it was!
A good night's sleep, followed by time with friends we love so much.
Simple, easy fun on a day that brought some relief from the heat,
  and brought us closer to the ones we love so much!
And then there's this picture of my Boy-Boy.
Ah, my heart!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

"My dream is sweet dreams for you..."

I have so many things on my mind...

   ...that were completely snuffed out at the sight of my sweet baby boy in his newly lowered crib, which indicates that my baby is getting bigger.

...sniff...

...sniff..

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

"Loving you is wondrous and pure, I shout it from the rooftops..."

So today...

...was peaceful. We woke up together as a family (yes, I still let PJ come snooze with me for an hour before breakfast! Bad Mom!) and spent the day together as a family!

...we went to Wegman's and had a spree because Pete's aunt and uncle gave us a gift card as a recovery gift for PJ! :-) PJ was admired by the sweetest older man! Someone usually stops us to admire the Boy wherever we go- I think it's all of that blonde hair and those blue eyes! And his general handsomeness! ;-)

...we watched while PJ had his first I-pulled-up-on-something-and-then-WHOA! spill! UGH! Like a knife to my heart! I know we have to let our babies fall down every now and then, but still! It scared him more then anything, he was just fine! And thank goodness- it may have been his first fall, but it won't be his last!

...it was so nice to have Pete home for PJ's nighttime routine! I know PJ loves the nights when his Da can read him his story!

...when we put PJ to bed, his head was facing his door. First check? He had wiggled so he was completely sideways in his crib! Second check? Head was back where he started. Third check? He had completely turned around so his head was facing the other side! So, sadly, it looks like PJ has the same sleep habits as his Mama!

...Pete and I enjoyed a late dinner. Chicken taco salads, YUM!

...of course, Pete's fire pager went off. And it was for a real fire with actual flames, as opposed to a car accident/down wires/alarm system/flood call, so he flew out the door all excited! Stupid pager. It never fails.

...I will go to bed and wait for Pete to join me, hopefully soon! But first, I will kiss that sweet baby on his head and whisper that I love him!

Sunday, August 8, 2010

"I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream..."

Thankfully, PJ is asleep right now!

For the past few weeks, 10pm-12am became his witching hour, and the poor baby would just Lose. His Mind.

It's all about his routine, which went to complete shit in the days after his surgery. There was that first terrible night, then even though he was relatively pain free, he was up for medicines and diaper changes (he had to be changed frequently when the stent was in).

Zzzzzzz.....
He is also starting to sleep on his belly, but he doesn't quite have the hang of rolling over and getting comfortable, so alot of the time, even though he's tired, he just doesn't know where he wants to be and gets frustrated. The combination of all of that has had him up every 3-4 hours, and it taking quite a while to get him settled back down.

It's not fun for anyone! And even though I still love snuggling him at night (I know, right? What the hell is wrong with me?) I don't want to be doing it because he's  not able to be rested and is uncomfortable! I'll give up my nighttime snuggles for my poor Boy to get a good nights sleep!

So, we are working on getting him back into his routine, and it's kind of kicking my ass! I don't want him to think I am at his back and call (even though...ahem...I totally am) and that he doesn't have to sleep because I will run to him any time he throws a tantrum! That's no good for anyone! But letting him cry it out is a huge fail for a number of reasons. One, he's not really the type to let it out then get over it (Holy crap, is this baby my kid!) and gets hyped up when he's left to cry. Two, I stress out over our neighbors being disturbed by him. Even though there is nothing I can do sometimes about PJ making noise, I worry that if he does make noise, it might not be tolerated.

For now though, my sweet son is sleeping peacefully after having a great day! We spent the day as a family with Pete, just relaxing and playing with PJ! He was in a very happy, smiley mood despite his lack of sleep! He is such a character and just makes us laugh every day! He's crawling all over the place now, and his favorite game is to crawl, look back at us and crack up, and then take off! He's babbling up a storm and seems like he's on the verge of having a whole bunch to say!

That baby Boy is the light of our lives, and even though it's all learn as you go, it makes me feel like a failure when I can't make everything perfect for him. I wonder if all mothers go through that or if I'm just extra neurotic.

Anyway, "Teen Mom" is almost over (don't judge me- you know me and my garbage TV habit!!), so it's time to go kiss that Boy on the head and tuck myself into bed!

Goodnight!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

"Hey, soul sister..."

That little blonde in the picture with me?

That's my sister Marla.

I have no idea how old we were here- if she was 4 or so, I was about 8.

And what the hell were we wearing? Good lord.

Sometimes, tragic pictures like this happen.



Anyway, that goofy little blonde kid? She grew up to be this:

She grew up to be a nurse:


She grew up to be a wife:



She grew up to be an aunt:


She's always been a daughter:


And she's always...


Always...



Always my sister.

And today is her birthday.

And what she's become is everything and more that I have ever dreamed of for her.

Happy, happy birthday to you, Marla! You are my sister and my best friend and the world would just be stupid without you!

I LOVE YOU!

Friday, August 6, 2010

"This is how we do it, it's Friday night..."

I am resisting the urge to go stare at PJ while he sleeps, since he has just started sleeping on his tummy like a big boy! It's seriously the cutest thing ever! But that would be totally stalker-ish.

Instead, what I should be doing is tacking the pile of dishes in the sink, the residual effects of having my sister Marla, her husband Steve, and my Mom over for dinner! Tomorrow is my sister's birthday, and since I am totally poor right now, I thought I would make everyone dinner! I used a very sophisticated recipe from inside of a box of Philly Cream Cheese (it was pretty much just some cream cheese stirred into a jar of sauce and ground beef over pasta) that actually managed to taste pretty good!

PJ had a fabulous day! It was wonderful! His diaper rash is completely gone and since he doesn't need any more topical medications, he cute little tush was back in his cloth diapers today! I am sure it felt good to have soft cloth against his skin. Or at the very least, it made me happy to see his cute little hiney swathed in an array of cute colors and soft soft cloth!

On that subject, I am actually shocked I stuck with cloth diapering, but I love it! We don't do it 100% of the time (when we're out and at night, PJ's in disposables) but I am always happier to have him in cloth, and PJ seems to be more comfortable, too!

So now, with my family gone, Pete at work, and PJ tucked into bed, it's a little bit lonely. Thank goodness that "Jersey Shore" is on to keep me company! :-)

Or maybe I should do the dishes.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

"One day you'll find out this is what life is all about..."

Dear Peter Joseph,

You are 8 months (and one week!)old, and your 8 month birthday was one of the most terrifying days of my life! But you, sweet Boy, were so brave on the day of your surgery, as tiny as you still are! It was a hard day, but you will be all better soon and even better? You have been with us for 8 months!

We have seen you change the most over this past month! Your personality is coming through more and more, and you are becoming such a character! Your favorite routine is to do a fake cough and then laugh your head off! You are still. not. napping. But, you are so cute we can forgive you for that! Almost.

We are 99% sure that your first word is "Da"! The majority of the time that you are saying "Ah Daaaa Daaaa Daaaaaa da da da da da Daaaa" you are looking at your Daddy, so we are going to go with it! :-) You are moving about so well and so quickly now! Watching you scoot along is the funniest thing ever! Even though you are moving well, you still have the lazies- you will crawl just as far as you have to, then stre-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-etch to reach whatever it is you want! :-) You are starting to pull up on your Mommy and Daddy and your toys with ease, and we think that the couches/crib/chairs/etc are not far behind! You LOVE your Cookie Monster doll!

You are still loving your food, and you have tried so many new things this month- new fruits, teething cookies, Cheerios's, diced carrots and dried apples! You are starting to show a slight aversion to green foods, but you will still eat them grudgingly! Your puff addiction has become even worse!

Peter Joseph, you are sassy, smart, silly and stubborn! You make us smile every single day! We are the luckiest parents ever and you, PJ, are the best Boy-Boy in the whole, wide world!

WE LOVE YOU, SWEET BOY!

Love,
Mama and Da

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

"The more I live, the more I know, what's simple is true..."

It is an absolutely gorgeous night out! There is an wonderful, cool breeze blowing, the air smells so good, and the temperature is just right. It's one of those nights that reminds you that it's August already and fall is truly just around the corner! It's amazing the way time is just slipping by!

The day, thankfully, was just as lovely as tonight! Tuesday's are like our Sunday, since Pete is off from work Monday and Tuesday. Since he had fireman meetings on Mondays, Tuesdays are our only day of the week that we can devote to each other. We spent a relaxing morning playing with PJ, and then I took him to visit with Pete's cousin Jen and her five kids! They are back in the area while her husband Eric is deployed to Afghanistan (Boo.) and while it sucks having Eric gone, it's alot of fun having Jen and the kids close by! Those kids are a riot and so full of life, and I am so happy that for now, all of PJ's cousins are close by!

We spent the afternoon relaxing and enjoyed a visit from Pete's friend Mike, who not only graced us with his company but fixed the ceiling fan in PJ's room! Mike could be a male model- he's very tall, with a slender build and very striking features- but thankfully, for PJ's fan, anyway, he's an electrician!

Later in the evening, we stopped by Pete's parents for dinner! Pete's brother Carl was there with his four, so it was a full house! PJ, as always, was so happy to see his cousins! The triplets are just amazing me with how much they have grown and matured, seemingly overnight! They are so funny and sassy and bright, and I'm so happy that PJ has such shining stars to look up to! We ate outside, and as the lovely evening started to set in, we all enjoyed each others company along with the delicious food!

After that it was home, bath, story, snuggles, and bedtime for our sweet Boy! I am sitting by the window blogging and Pete is engrossed in some (dumb) game on his X-Box. It's that comfortable feeling,when just enjoying the nearness of the one you love is good.

The night is beautiful, our son is healthy, healing, and wonderful, and we all always have each other. It makes all of the other nonsense of life become just that. Nonsense.

What makes the most sense now is to spell check this, post it, and then kiss my son on his cute blonde head before I turn in myself!

I hope everyone had a day that was just as lovely!

Goodnight!