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"There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how..."

I didn't anticipate how hard this past week was going to be. I had a very naive idea of what PJ's recovery would be like, and didn't anticipate the level of pain and discomfort he would be feeling. Seeing your child in pain is, on an emotional level, just exhausting. Pete and I were just discussing PJ's first night after his surgery, the way he was just screaming and writhing in pain, and we are just thankful that he is a baby and, most likely, has already forgotten that terrible night. Pete and I? We pretty much realize that as a parent, you don't even forget something like that, it leaves a scar on your heart. Seriously? My sister went through four open-heart surgeries before she was 6 years old, and I'm not sure how my parents made it through that without losing their minds!

So, we're worn out and still feeling emotional, but things are starting to look up! PJ had his urology follow up today! The stent was removed from the surgical site, and the doctor sa…

"It's the perfect day, tomorrow's gonna come too soon..."

Today's plan was to continue our sequesterment (is that a word? I guess I'll find out when I spell check...) and hang inside.

But that went out the window! The lingering effects of an exceedingly aggravating e-mail yesterday had me feeling a little stabby (thanks, Ann Marie! Great term!) and the beautiful morning had me longing for fresh air, so with that, I made the executive decision to get the hell out of my apartment for the morning!

It was off to my favorite coffee haunt to meet up with my favorite coffee friend, her sweet duo of gals, and PJ's super-handsome BFF! The gals played, the boys noshed on Gerber puffs, and the Mama's enjoyed iced coffee drinks with LOTS of whipped cream and vented about this, that and the other! It was delicious and cathartic and exactly what I needed! An easy outing that allowed PJ and I to have a change of scene without being too strenuous for my post-surgery Baby!

(And by the way, thanks, Michelle, for meeting up with me and letting m…

"Oh don't you know I'd find a cure and take your pain away..."

So, thankfully, things are getting back to normal here!

PJ is recovering from his surgery like a champ, and becoming more and more like his old self as each hour passes! He is still having some minor discomfort at the surgical site during diaper changes, but it is healing beautifully and is not impeding his movements at all! Although he has started trying to crawl on his knees with his belly off the floor instead of army crawling, and Pete and I theorized that it was to keep him from dragging his Little Man Bits across the floor! :-) He's not eating as well as usual, but he still has an awful lot of meds on his belly, even if we were able to switch the acetaminophen with codeine for just plain old acetaminophen (aka Tylenol). He's drinking and nursing so we're not concerned. In a few days, he'll get his stent out and the real healing will begin!

Taking care of PJ aside, it's been very quiet here (well, depending on who you ask...). I'm kind of keeping his seques…

"Little slip of a little man, I swear I'd give my life for you..."

To summarize:

Day of Surgery.

-got there on time
-went back into surgery late
-PJ was amazing while we waited, so good!
-Bawled my eyes out when I had to hand him to the nurse (whose name, seriously, was Pinky) to take him back to the OR
-argued about politics with Pete
-chatted with a friend of Pete's who stopped in to say hi. A few floors above us, he sorely undialated girlfriend would give birth to their son many hours later!
-Finally! Our Boy was done! Doc said it went amazingly well!
-Went back to the PACU and there was PJ, tucked into a bed groggily sucking down a bottle of Pedialite
-Checked this, checked that, got to go home!
-Things going well, PJ played, ate, snuggled
-Around 10pm, the rest of his pain meds (the equivalent of an epidural called a caudal block) wore off
-My poor, sweet son spent the next 5 hours in terrible pain from bladder spasms
-he screamed and writhed in pain
-I cried
-we gave him acetaminophen and prayed for some relief
-finally, around 3…
Wherein I babble uncontrollably...

Tomorrow is PJ's surgery to correct his hypospadias.

We had a very quiet, relaxing day at home. We played with PJ, who was in a very funny, smiley mood for most of the day! Nothing fancy, we just enjoyed each other's togetherness. PJ even took a nice, LONG nap, snuggled with his Mama on the couch while I watched a "Jersey Shore" marathon (don't judge). I was too keyed up to sleep, so I alternately watched Snooki and Co. act like jackasses and gazed down at my son. He was so peaceful and sweet and calm- just looking at him made my heart skip! When it was time to tuck him into bed, I had a hard time putting him down, I could have held on to him forever!

I know that I am being psychotic, I mean, my sister had four open heart surgeries, her first when she was two months younger then PJ. She was truly in a situation where her life was in a very precarious place. I know that PJ's life isn't really in any danger, but I am still …

"I was swimming across the sky, clouds and angels by my side..."

Ahhhh! How wonderful it is to rejoin the world outside!! We have been inside the past few days because PJ has a paranoid mama of PJ's fever, so we were all due for some outside entertainment!

We ventured out to our favorite coffee haunt in the morning to meet with my dear friend Michelle and her littles! Her gals were pink-striped, pigtailed balls of energy, and our boys were squirmy and full of handomeness! The coffee had caffeine, the chat was lovely and relaxing- it was the perfect pick-me-up and just what I needed!

After a quick stop at home for lunch, PJ and I headed over to the Gilper house, to hang out with Randi and her gals and visit with her parents. Randi's mom and dad are still in the house in Cherry Hill that they moved to when we were in 8th grade, and as it has a pool, it's always been a favorite hangout! We relaxed in the pool while the kids had a great time splashing about! PJ was loving the water, splashing his hands and kicking his feet and laughing his …

"Tuesday afternoon, I'm just beginning to see..."

Ah, a rainy Tuesday!

Tuesdays are good days in general around here, because it's Pete's day off, so we usually are able to spend some family time together, and get things done around the house because there's two people around to hang with PJ instead of just one!

So when we woke up this morning and it still was dark in our bedroom, I was looking forward to a cozy family day!

Of course, I must be a friggin' idiot to think that that's how the day would go, because whenever there is bad weather, Pete's fire pager goes off All. Friggin'. Day. Down wires, flooded underpasses, the morons that drive into the flood under the aforementioned underpass and need rescued, etc. But, it's all good, and I just think about how someday, PJ will think that it's supercool that his Dad goes out on the fire truck and rescues people!

We did manage to have a precious half hour together to have a yummy dinner- turkey meatloaf (it's gooo-ooo-oood), mashed potatoes, and g…

"It's just that it's delicate..."

It's so quiet here!

Pete is at a fire department meeting and my sweet PJ is tucked into bed after a long, punky, feverish day for him! He ran a fever all day but thankfully, he's running a normal temperature now! With luck, the dose of gen. Tylenol he just got will get him through the night!

We had to drag my poor Boy out to the urologist for one last check-up before his surgery in two weeks. Everything is still looking good for an uncomplicated surgery! We are very lucky in that his urologist is fantastic, exactly how every doctor should be. He's extremely patient, calm, and informative. He never acts rushed or like your questions are stupid. He makes sure you get all of the information needed, which I think is an amazing trait for a doctor to have as not all patients/parents are good at asking questions. He has a great bedside manner, and appears extremely confident without also being an asshole.

(Believe me, I have dealt with lots of doctors. That's a rare trait.)


"Born on the 4th of July!"

(I know, I am telling these stories waaaaaaaaay out of order! I was going to just go backwards, but I'm just going to get things in where I can!)

Our first Fourth of July weekend with PJ was such a blast!

I found that now that I have my son, all of the things that I loved about the 4th of July (noise, family, parades, fireworks, barbecues!) were completely intensified because we could share it with him!

It all began with Oaklyn's July 4th parade, which was held on the 3rd this year, as it was in lots of other towns so as not to interfere with church services (July 4th was a Sunday this year!). My dear friend Randi and her family joined us, along with our friend Sarah and her sweet son! The kids thought it was pretty cool that PJ's Daddy was going to match in the parade! Or, at least, the did think it was cool, until they realized that they throw candy from the floats/cars in the parade! Then it was less about PJ's Daddy and more about the massive amounts of sugar being …

"People in the party, hot hot hot!"

Oy. It's hot.

The heat here in NJ has just been unreal! We had two days in a row of temperatures over 100 degrees! Today was a balmy 94 degrees (ahem...sarcasm...) which honestly seemed like a break!

My sweet son hates the heat- just like his father- so we have spent the past few days hibernating in the house with the A/C on full blast! We sang songs, played with toys, rolled on the floor (well, PJ did), watched Sesame Street, we got so bored, we did this:

I showed Pete this picture and he just kind of blinked a few times and said "Um, why is the baby in a laundry basket?" "But look how happy he looks!", I responded. Silence.

We got really friggin' tired of the inside of this apartment.

Okay. That last one was me.

We recruited some friends and had a quick morning visit to our Favorite Coffee Haunt! It was a short trip, but the change of scene was much needed and much appreciated! After that, it was back to our little home, where the cat howls and the A/C is p…

"You're my silver lining covered in gold..."

Last week, we has a stretch of amazing, lovely weather- temperatures in the high 70's, sunny, cloudless days, cool nights and no humidity! It was absolutely perfect!

On what was supposed to be the last night of great weather before the heat set in, we met up with some friends for an impromptu pizza picnic in Knight's Park! My friend Tammy, along with her husband Chris and their sweet, sassy girls Kaiya and Mailie, met us in a shady spot next to the playground, where we spread out some blankets and sat with PJ while the big girls played! My friend Shira soon joined us, along with her adorable infant son Dylan, and it was a party!!

What was supposed to be a quick visit to the park stretched into hours as the kids played, the grown-up's chatted, and everyone munched on pizza! The cool breeze kept us comfortable and happy, and there was often heard a comment of "It's just gorgeous out tonight!"

At some point in the evening, we met another little boy who declared h…

"My love, look what you can do..."

random musings...

Just got back from a "date" with the Sister-In-Law!

Love her!

She looked beautiful and I kind of looked like the butch one if we were a lesbian couple instead of sisters.

Maybe it's finally time to work on that.

It was my first night out without either of my Boys, both Baby and Big, and I missed them terribly!

We saw "Eclipse" and I think I texted Pete about twenty times.

"How's the baby? Still sleeping?"

As if he could sleep without me. Pfffft.

(He went down like an angel and hasn't woken up since his Daddy laid him in his crib. The nerve.)

When I came in, I kissed him on his head because even though he's asleep I'm sure he'd like to know that his Mommy is home!

Still...I truly enjoyed my night out! I am so lucky in my family, and perhaps most lucky in the sister I gained!

Dinner was delicious, the conversation was great, the movie was awesome (my favorite of the series so far!)!

I'm a wife and a mama, but I'm …

"And I will always love you..."

Dear Peter Joseph,

Your baptism day was such a special day, not only because of the blessings you received but because it was also your 7-month birthday!

Daddy and I can hardly believe you have been with us for 7 months! It's been such a wonderful time, and the changes in you this past month have been amazing! Your personality has really blossomed, and you are such a funny little character! You laugh and smile and chuckle at the drop of a hat, and every time you do it is music to our ears! You seem to make everyone around you happy, and other people make you happy, too! You're not a clingy type- if the arms are loving you will snuggle in them!

You are eating like a champ! You are having so much fun trying new foods! Carrots and applesauce are still your favorite (along with the car seat strap that you love to chew on for some inexplicable reason) but you also love sweet potato, green beans, and pears! You tried baby wheat puffs and after you figured out how to get them into you…