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"I have been changed for good..."

Just a quick few words-

Today was my last day at WCRH. I found out today that there was a HUGE layoff, and alot of the people I have grown to care about lost their jobs. It's really the first time I have been exposed to just how horrible it is out there- the economy in general is in a shambles, and for the first time I am seeing it real life instead of played out by experts on The Today Show. It's the first time in nine years that I have had only one job, and I am feeling blessed to even have that!

Pete and I are hardly people who live in the lap of luxury, but we are really going to have to make some changes. We had planned on my having two jobs this summer in order to put away some money, but unless I am able to find something, that's going to change, so I can't help but feel very stressed out about our future. At least the next 6-9 months, anyway.

That said, I can look back on the past 4 1/2 years and feel so blessed for all of the things I have had the opportunity to do. I have seen the miracle of a young girl, shot in the head at two years old, go home as an atypical but very much alive 5 year old. I also had to say goodbye to a very special treasure of a 4 year old much too soon. I've met kids I will never, ever forget and who have changed my life for the better. I've also been lucky enough to make some fantastic friends. So even though I am hoping there is something else for me,it's hard to see his chapter of my life close.

But, if I ever need a laugh, there's always this picture of the apple I was going to eat after dinner, which instead was assaulted by my friend Kevin:


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