Thursday, February 5, 2009

"Spinning infinity, boy, the wheel is spinning me..."

Thursday. That magical day that's just one away from Friday! And not only that, all of my shows are on Thursdays! So, how self-indulgent is it that I am plopped down in front of the TV and blogging at the same time. Just get me a handful of Girl Scout Cookies and I'm breaking like, 6 commandments!

But I ate all of the cookies. Foo.

Anyway, the onset of the joys of womanhood (ahem...) have made this a bit of a long week for me! It's so secret that my nerves have been a little psychotic jangled, so add my monthly female sunshine and I am kind of a cranky girl! The wacky weather- warm one second and then snowing the next- isn't helping either. And to make it worse...I just realized I complain way too much for someone as reletively young as I am!!!!!! But, I promise, I am really, really trying to do something about it. It just boggles my mind that I can be so strong in helping other people, but when it comes to myself, I can just let myself turn into an overweight blob who doesn't have any hobbies anymore, and doesn't care that her eyebrows are starting to look like a guys armpit hair.

Oh God, did I just write all of that? Do you see what I mean? Thankfully, I'll be done with...womanhood...in a few days. But that will only cure a few of the problems. After that, it's up to me. Because...womanhood...comes every month, and I can't continue to swirl down the shame vortex!! Tomorrow is step one, and hopefully, it's just one foot in front of the other after that.

And all of the above angst aside, I know that I am so lucky in so many way, the things I have so far outweigh the thing I think are broken. I think all of those are the real reason I haven't gone for the edge of a cliff yet, and really, shouldn't we all be thankful for the people who turn a would-be cliff dive into a fairly harmless bungee jump? Right now, I'm dangling a bit, but I know I'll sproing back up any time now.

Okay, on to other things, like the book that has been my constant companion since yesterday (except for when I re-re-re-re-re-read Twilight in the bathroom because I left it there a while ago...)! Wally Lamb wrote one of my favorite books of all time, She's Come Undone, so I was excited when The Hour I First Believed came out! It's amazing and except for my Twilight bathroom breaks, I can't put it down!

In fact, my comfy bed and my awesome book are calling me! I bid you all a good night!

2 comments:

Shelly said...

my friends are all fully in the midst of a twilight frenzy--i need to read it again...but first i need to get books 1,3, and 4...so i'll just keep thinking about it =)

Ree said...

OOO I loved 'She's Come Undone'!! I also read 'I Know This Much Is True', which was another goody!! I'll have to get the new one and soon!!