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"I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence..."

This morning, I had a huge fight with my husband. I was so upset; I could not stop crying and yelling, and I even hit him. I could not believe this fight was happening, it was awful!

Thankfully, I was dreaming! I don't dream very often, but when I do, I tend to have very strange dreams, and this time I was dreaming that he cheated on me!! The only problem was, I was still dreaming when Pete leaned over to say goodbye to me, so in my confusion, I pushed him away and yelled "Get away from me!". Poor Pete didn't know what end was up, so he just kind of snuck out and I fell back asleep! I didn't even realize that I had yelled at him until I spoke to him later in the day! I felt terrible- that was quite a send off for Pete's first day of clinicals!

I have to say, though, I'm kind of annoyed. Why can't I have dreams that I am the one cheating...with Benjamin Bratt? Mmmmm...Benjamin Bratt. At any rate, that's how my day started out!

I met up with Marla and Steve at The Painted Cottage- my second trip there this week! After breakfast we all headed over to Mom-Mom's for a visit. I regaled her with pictures and videos of Ellie and Anna, and Marla and Steve showed off pictures of their gorgeous new home! She seemed a little low-energy, and was not ready to get out of bed yet, even though she really should be walking to improve her circulation. But, she was spending alot of time in bed before all of this, since the Alzheimer's and depression pack quite a punch. That said, we still had a great time laughing and talking, and we're just going to take it day by day.

After Mom-Mom's I ran a few errands and then came home to get ready to meet Carmen and her family out for dinner! It was a great night- everyone had a blast and our table was the loudest in the place!! I had loads of yummy food, got to have a night out with Pete, and celebrate my Carmen's birthday for the second time since our Applebees night!! I took this picture of a cool fish light that was hanging by the hostess stand!

I am finding that the beauty of Project 365 is that I am always on the lookout for a cool shot to capture! It's making the every day that much more beautiful and I search for the sight or moment I am going to use to remember that particular day forever.


Today, when I walked in from running my errands, I found an exhausted Pete sound asleep on the couch with Gordie curled up next to him! It was so sweet that I was reaching for my camera before I even had the door shut behind me! As I snapped a few pictures, I thought about how I will be able to remember that tiny moment forever now!


I have the feeling that I will need those small doses of sweetness to get me through.


Comments

haha that is too funny. At the beginning of the post I thought you were being serious too! I have dreams like that sometimes and I am also known to talk in my sleep. One night I woke my guy up at 3 in the morning and told him it was time for him to go to work. I don't even remember! I also love the project 365 and I am constantly scoping out what my picture of the day is going to be too!

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