Saturday, January 31, 2009
Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
And I am woman enough to admit it.
A combination of impending sickness and PMS has me walking a very thin wire- my patience levels and energy levels are already pretty low. Wait....that is me with PMS alone. PMS in conjunction with getting sick makes me feel...well...like this:
In fact, I just looked up from blogging to watch ER for a second and burst into tears. ER comes on at 10pm. It's now 10:05.See? I'm a hot mess.
Thankfully,the day wasn't all bad, despite my horrible mood. I was able to grab a nap while my gals were at school, so that gave me a little boost for the day. Anna and I joined Randi for some lunch at Don Pablo's- the perk of having a pregnant friend is that they are always up for lunch! Even though the girls aren't mine, it is so nice to have a friend who is raising girls of the same age- I imagine I will feel the same way when I have children of my own and (hopefully) have friends with kids the same age. Those little chickens may not be mine, but I often feel many of joys and frustrations (oh, yes, frustrations!) that my friends feel for their own kids.
Still, while I enjoyed Randi's company, I found myself craving a bit of personal space- not easy when you work in a house with two little girls, another adult, and a dog! That left my nerves a little jangled (Hey, I have never claimed to be a nice person!). Worry over my sister-in-law, however, pushed me over the edge and later, I ended up picking a completely unnecessary fight with Pete. Sadly, I am still in the "I-can't-back-down-even-though-I'm-wrong-because-I-can't-admit-I'm-wrong" place. It's part of being a Taurus, what can I say?
Oh, jeeze, this episode of ER is friggin' killing me! Anyway...
An evening with my sisters-in-law (which reminds me, I was also short with the birth sister on the phone...feh...) dulled my sharp mood a little, enough to come home and try to take stock of my day. I get so frustrated with myself for feeling so down, especially when so many people- even the people that I love- have "real" problems. Did you mom ever say to you "Oh, I will give you something to cry about!"? I kind if wish someone would say that to me, so I could get a friggin' grip!
Thank GOD next week I'll get my period and get over myself...at least for another 28 days! ;-)
Goodnight, my loves!
PS- Ann, how many Hail Mary's would I get for this one???
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
It had tapered off by the time I got to work, and so I proceeded to start a pretty quiet day. Anna has been fighting off a cold, and I am starting to think I might be following suit. I am starting to get the cough and have just been feeling so tired the past few days!Come 2pm today, it was a struggle to stay awake!
I am willing to bet that part of the reason for that is that I am in terrible shape; in fact, I am, like, 99.9999999% sure it is! It's just that when it comes to finding the motivation to make improvements, I find myself a little (ahem....alot) on the lax side! I hate to complain about it day after day without really doing anything about it, but I am trying to be honest here! I'm just letting it all out and hoping that I was be able to reach down deep to do something about it!
That said, it's off to bed, I am one sleepy girl! But, please, by all means! Stay. Read. Tell me if you have something to say, or any random thoughts at all! And hang out to enjoy this picture of bird footprints in the snow!
Monday, January 26, 2009
How cute is that? Anyway, hope your day hasn't been to smelly! Goodnight!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Friday, January 23, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Ooops. Okay, so I might have a little problem here.
Anyway, driving to work this morning, I was totally cut off by an idiot in an SUV, only to have them going in the same direction on (one lane each way) Kresson Road so I was stuck behind them, spouting a long trail of sluggish profanity, as I had not had any coffee yet. Even at low energy, road rage is nothing to scoff at.
So, I took a picture of the idiot, because it just seemed so me!
(please note- I was at a stoplight that I know is very long, since I get caught at it every damn morning and placed my car in park to ensure my safety and the safety of other drivers as I quickly operated my camera. And no, I am NOT avoiding the subject of my Mom-Mom...)
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
After a rough yesterday, I have to admit that I was not looking forward to a long day of work today, even if it was with my cute little Chickens! I really wanted to stay in bed, cry, and eat. I remembered just in time, however, that in order to have the luxury of emotional eating, you need money to buy food, so off to work I went!
Thankfully, just in time to give me a dose of cheer, today was Anna's semester-end recital at The Little Gym! She has been going to Little Gym since she was two and LOVES it! It really is a great program, and her teachers at the Cherry Hill site are awesome- love her for her cuteness but know how to handle her sassy side! So Miss Sassy Pants is no stranger to recitals, and has gone from this:
Wait for it....
CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? She has gotten so big, my little hula diva! Isn't she gorgeous? She was awesome, she's such a little diva! I seriously teared up while she was doing her ballet routine, she was so good, as you can see:
You can enjoy her tap routine at my friend Michelle's blog- her beautiful daughter Amelie is also in Anna's class and a great friend of Anna's! I didn't get this routine on video, so thank you, Michelle!
Seeing how big my little Chicken has become warmed my heart on a day I really needed it! I am so excited that Ellie is going back to dance this semester- I bet she's come even farther!
And maybe tomorrow, I can talk about Mom-Mom.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
And in the "How far we have to go still" department, I have a great picture of Anna watching the inauguration, but I can't figure out how to get it off of my camera, which is kind of the theme to the day.
I wish I had never blogged about my Mom-Mom's catheterization, because I guess I really should follow up on it, and I'm just not going to right now. Sorry. I can be amazingly stubborn, closed-in, and introverted when I actually want to ask others to be strong for me.
Hopefully, I'll have the picture tomorrow.
Monday, January 19, 2009
The Golden Girls always makes me thing of sleepovers at my Mom-Mom's house on Saturday nights. When my sister and I were little, we would sleep over at Mom-Mom's on weekends! Every Saturday night, we'd pile into her gigantic, king-sized bed and watch TV until it was time to go to sleep! Golden Girls was always part of our TV repertoire! After TV, it would be time for bed- Mom-Mom on the right side, Marla in the middle, and me banished to as far to the right as I could get because I kicked so badly in my sleep! The next morning, we would talk her into letting us get breakfast from the Burger King around the corner!
Marla and I had to laugh when we heard this song on the radio tonight, because we were driving home from the hospital- my Mom-Mom has a small blockage in her heart, so she will have a cardiac catheterization done tomorrow morning to remove the blockage. Thankfully, it could be alot worse, and the cath, while sounding scary, should be a relatively simple procedure. But, she will need to be anesthetized, and while pretty dang good-looking for a woman her age, is no spring chicken, so this will be a semi-serious thing. This, of course, is a picture of her from our wedding- she would kill me if I used one of the pictures I tried to take of her today for Project 365!
Discomfort aside, Mom-Mom was in very good spirits and was very chatty! Observe the following conversation (don't ask me how we came upon this particular subject, it just happens when you are stuck in an ER room):
Oh, you would not!
Well, you know what they say about David Beckham....
(giggles from Brie and Marla)
What do they say?
Brie and Marla
That he has a giant weenie.
Now,you girls don't know that.
Well, his wife says it is!
Well, what would you do if you were dating someone and you found out he wasn't well-endowed?
I don't know? Can he cook?
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Besides, even if you do get home late, how can you even think of being crabby when your cute husband is in the kitchen making you a yummy dinner? I got to lay on the couch and read for a bit, and then enjoy some chicken and veggies with Pete! I think Wednesdays and Thursdays are my favorite days, since Pete doesn't work those nights and we can spend some time together...even if "spending time together" consists of me blogging and Pete playing some game or another on his XBox! We are in the same room and all I have to do is lean in to get a kiss, so it works! At any rate, I meant to take a picture of dinner before I are anything, but I forgot until there were only about three bites left on my plate. But they are lovely-looking bites anyway, right? :-)
And speaking of the book I am reading, it is "the perks of being a wallflower" by Stephen Chbosky. It's another recommendation from my amazingly smart, well-read sister-in-law Ann Marie! I am trying very hard not to devour it, so I can extend the joy of reading it for the first time for as long as possible, but I am sure I'll finish it tonight! Even though the main character, Charlie, is much younger then I am, I find myself relating to his observations about life. Isn't it great to pick up a book and make a new friend?
Of course, I am amazed that I put my new phone down long enough to even pick up a book! I fully think I am addicted to my new phone. It's sooooo sleek and pretty and gadgety! It's like my laptop in my pocket! I mean, I can check Facebook on it! E-mail! Perez! And Twittering? Oh yeah. I tweet. Sometimes four, five times a day! It's a drug, and I'm addicted.
I think the only thing I may have a bigger addiction to is blogging!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
...and it was the most beautiful noise I have heard in a LONG time!
Two and a half months, in fact! The renovations at my girls house have been going on since before Thanksgiving, so that's a full holiday season accompanied by near-constant noise! Now, you are reading the blog of a pretty damn noisy person! I love to sing, blast music, and to be completely honest, I talk ALOT! Seriously. You know me. I never shut up.
So you would think that noise would just roll right off my back. And for the first, oh, two weeks, it did. But as the days went by, I became pretty darn cranky! Not only was it noisy, but it smelled weird, was dusty, and completely disrupted the routine the girls and I have.
The gals and I celebrated the quiet with a rousing game of Backyardigans Memory! It was so wonderful to be able to speak to each other at a normal volume and still be able to hear each other! The girls and I had so much fun! And I must say- I usually "throw" the game so the gals can win, but I did not have to try to lose today! The girls whooped my ass! Is my memory supposed to be this bad already- I am only 31 years old! I think I had about three matches, but my poor memory aside, we had alot of fun before Ellie had to settle down to do her homework! I kind of wonder if it will be anything like this when I have my own children.
Monday, January 12, 2009
But then they would know I am nosey. Sigh...
At any rate, this fun blog (the author of which has exceedingly beautiful kids!) hosts a game of sorts- every Monday, you can blog about how wonderful you are, and list behaviors that you would never indulge in!
Well, how fun is that? Let's blog about how great I am!!
Well, I am only the most enthusiastic and hard-working of nannies, so when my alarm went off this morning, I most certainly did not let loose with a long trail of profanities on my way to the shower! And while I was in the shower, I didn't lean against the wall of the shower and doze off.
Drying off this morning, I didn't dread going to work and dealing with the continued renovations at the house. And when I got to said house, I was perfectly happy to deal with all of the noise, dust, pounding, yelling, chiming, alarming, cleaning and traffic! No, really, I was the picture of the perfect hostess!
I did not, without a doubt would never have fled the house with Anna when the cleaning crew showed up, to add to the already crowded house full of people fixing the floor and installing the alarm system! And if I had fled, I would NOT have gone to Barnes and Noble and spent the last of my gift card on a big 'ol stack of books!!
When I did get a chance to do some blog surfing, I did not have a laugh at the expense of my friend Michelle, who had a rough day and yet, somehow managed to share her angst-ridden experience in a funny way!
After a long day at work, I was not so grumpy and tired that I turned down a visit to see my Shelly and instead, stopped for some Wendy's drive-thru and went home. And when I got home, I would NEVER have walked PAST my adorable husband without so much as a hug, and instead walk over to my new phone that arrived today!
And if I had brought Wendy's home to eat, I would not consume it while rotting my brain with another Monday night in front of "Gossip Girl". I mean, really? "Gossip Girl"?
C'mon folks! You all know me better then that! :-)
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Our Saturday's are generally spent apart. Pete works as an EMT and I spend most of my weekends at the hospital, keeping kiddos amused in the playroom! Unlike our schedule on the weekdays, Pete is out of bed first and usually out the door before it's time for me to wake up! I don't have to be at work until 10am, so I can take my time in the morning.
I would love to share the cuteness I am surrounded by at work, but thanks to HIPAA, that's illegal!
Instead, please enjoy this picture of my cat waiting by the door for me tonight!
Friday, January 9, 2009
For the longest time, I wasn't even a Martha fan! Who was this bitch telling me how to organize my closet or what to grate lemon zest on? Was she serious?
Eventually, I found my way on Martha's path of righteousness. For one thing, jail did her alot of good- she seems to have had that stick up her booty removed (there's a joke there that has to do with her stint in jail and just HOW that stick was removed, I know it, but I've got nothing right now...)! I started watching her show and found myself really enjoying it! Then she came out with that line of scrapbooking stuff, and I was hooked!
So now I am fully on the Martha bandwagon, and it's a good thing! I was inspired by the cover of this month's Martha Stewart Living Magazine to try a project with my gals!
Here's the cover:
And, well, here's what we came up with:
Well, we got the basic idea! The girls had a great time mixing food coloring into icing and making the colors lighter and darker! My artistic Ellie Belly especially was amazing with the colors! They did an outstanding job and really had a good understanding of what colors to mix and how much to add. It was insanely messy, but so fun! A good way to end off a week with my chickadees!
On an entirely different topic, my Anna Banana is becoming quite the diva! Please observe this video of her singing to her own reflection- and to Linkin Park, no less! How funny is this kid?? She LOVES the song "Leave Out All The Rest" from the Twilight Soundtrack!
I love the look on her face when she gets caught at the end!
Thursday, January 8, 2009
I know that alot of my friends/family are parents. There are aspects to parenthood that despite all of my years working with kids I just can't understand. There is however, something I have an exceedingly large base of knowledge on! I may not have kids yet, but I am a sister!
For all of you parents of daughters, you may despair while you listen to them bicker and fight, or wish for a "Child Mute" button you could press when they scream at each other after one makes fun of the other for being grounded or borrows something from the other without permission. You may wonder if you will ever have peace.
You won't. Sorry. While they are under the same roof, sisters tend to cause an unbelievable chaos. Even when they are getting along, there can be a discordant noise- a weird sort of harmony that only sisters can create. In their good moments, you might marvel at what you created. In their "off" moments...well, I am willing to bet you wish those X and Y chromosomes had paired up a little differently.
But worry not. Here's the catch that only a grown-up sister can know. Suddenly, one day, those girls will realize that they need each other more then anything else in the world. That all of that bickering and fighting is just a part of the secret language that they speak now.
Thank goodness that I am lucky enough to be one of those grown-up sisters, because without the other girl my parents managed to pop out, I'd be lost.
Plus, nobody would have made me dinner tonight!
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
It started out great! Well, not weather wise- it's super cold, rainy and gross! I took Ellie to the bus stop and upon realizing that I forgot to bring a change of clothes to go out later, took Anna back to my apartment! She is obsessed with a furry fake sheepskin blanket that we have, so we cuddled up in that and played games on sesamestreet.com! Then it was off to dance, lunch with Randi, then back to the house to pick up Ellie from the bus stop!
Sadly, by the end of the night, I felt alot like this:
But, such is life when you are a nanny, you take the ups and the downs! Tomorrow, my gals will do something cute and their horrendous behavior tonight will be forgiven!
Bad behavior aside, I was very, very proud of Ellie and my nephew Carl, who both had work on display at the county art show! The theme was "Wow!" and it turns out, Wow! There are alot of talented kids in this area! Ellie wrote a story about holidays, and it was displayed in the literature section. Carl painted a gorgeous picture! They were both so pleased and proud, and I was pleased and proud for them! Being a grown woman who can not draw a straight line with a ruler, some of the kids artwork blew me away! And imagine- if it's a local art show today at age 6 or 7, what will it be in five years? Ten? Hey- maybe I should forget Ellie's behavior tonight just in case she becomes a famous, rich artist!
In other news, my tattoo is peeling nicely, and is almost healed and ready to become a permanent display of cuteness! Have I mentioned that I fully heart my tattoo? Because I do!
Okay, time to wipe the tears from the Law and Order episode I was watching while I blogged (yes, I cry over TV shows!) and go to bed!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Today was gross. Cold, dreary, gray and damp. Still, how pretty does the rain look on the deck, with the last few leaves of fall skimmed across the wood?
Nothing like a project to help you find a small, beautiful spot in the day.
Monday, January 5, 2009
"A penny for your thoughts but a dollar for your insides...I'm just a painter and I'm drawing a blank..."
Now, I have to admit, it took me until about 10:00, 10:30am to really warm up to the fact that I was back to work, but once I did, I realized how much I missed my little gals! Ellie and Anna both had a great time in Vermont with their family, and I was treated to many tales of the ski slopes and snow! Once my first (two, large) cups of coffee set in, I was happy and settled back into my routine!
I didn't get a chance to get a picture of Ellie, as the poor kid was slaving over her homework! I didn't feel like it was fair to capture her as she tried to do a word problem that had something to do with cows and how many pogs they had.
(Um, cow word problems?)
Anna, on the other hand, was all but screaming for me to take her picture, such was the staggering volume of her cuteness! Anna discovered that when you take a braid out, it leaves your hair crinkled, or "frizzy", as she puts it. So every night, she begs me to braid her hair while it's wet. Tonight I gave in, and the sight of her running around, hair braided, freshly bathed and in her PJ's, wearing angel wings, was too cute to miss!
Even better, my sweet friend Michelle came over tonight to watch Gossip Girl (and then the Rock of Love Reunion, and then The City...)! We have been shooting for a GG date for quite some time, so I was so happy we could make it work for the mid-season premier! Chuck Bass did not disapoint, and we got to have some great girls time over yummy snacks and soda out of wine glasses! Sometimes it just takes an easy, relaxed fun time to bring the swing back to your step after your first day back to work!
And, in this case, my step is going to swing me right into bed! Let's all hope that my insomnia will mellow out like the rest of me!
I bid you goodnight!
UPDATE: I just found this awesome quote-
Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness.
- Robertson Davies
I love it.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
My sister-in-law Ann Marie told me about this fun project called Project 365. The idea is to take one picture every day. It doesn't have to be of you, just something, anything, that was a moment in your day. The idea is that when you go through your collection of pictures at the end of year, you will have a reminder of each and every day!
Well, what a blessing that would be! How often do I find myself saying "God, I can't remember what I even did yesterday, it was such a blur!" One thing I learned for sure from 2008 is that you never, ever get those days back, and there are moments that I would give anything to have a piece of forever.
It's already the 4th of January, and I don't want to lose another moment, so here's my moment for today! Pete and I are cleaning up the remnants of our first holiday together, and I have been packing up all of our holiday decorations!
Here we go!
Saturday, January 3, 2009
It's my next to last day of vacation, and although it has been a long, lovely relaxing one, I will be a little bummed to go back to work after almost two weeks of sleeping in and hanging out!
That said, I have been laying around watching HGTV. Generally, this fills me with thousands of ideas and sends me into a tizzy or refolding our towels to look fancy or re-organizing my closet! Watching HGTV paired with a PMS-induced headache, however, is just leaving me feeling increasingly bitchy about the electrical problem in our living room, closely monitored from my perch on the couch! The most ambitious project I've done today is keep A & D ointment on my new tattoo!!
Come Monday though, it's going to be back to my world of little girls, cute clothes, homework and dance class! And while I do miss my little chickens, I am going to enjoy the laziness of my last 1 and 1/4 day of vacation left!
Friday, January 2, 2009
Look what I got!
It's my new tattoo!!! It's a little puffy still, but isn't it cute??? Three guesses what the "inspiration" for it is? :-)
Anyway, I hope that everyone I know and love had a happy, safe and fun New Year! I can hardly believe 2009 is upon us, with all of the promise that it holds! I usually start the new year like most people, with a list of resolutions that I punk out on by mid-February at the latest!
I mean, honestly, it's pathetic.
Nonetheless, I do have a few things I would like to try and improve upon this year- eating right and losing some weight, spending more time with my family and friends and less at work, being better with money, all of the usual things.
For 2009 though, I am hoping for so many other things, much more important then my chunky ass or horrible Barnes and Noble habit (although I really need to curb my book spending a bit!).
So, here are my New Year's Resolutions for 2009: I resolve to watch over Shelly, and continue to pray for her heart not to heal (because will any of our hearts ever really heal from losing Greg?) but to at least scab over enough not to hurt anymore. I resolve to get Marla through her struggles with lupus and be there for her through this whole medical circus. I resolve to take better care of my body, so hopefully, God will find it in His heart to add a little something, particularly to the uterus area (but not TOO soon in 2009, lest anyone get all excited!)! I resolve to make the most of the little time I do have with Pete, and know that soon enough, so much more of the world will be open to us and our marriage! I resolve to spend more time with my Mom-mom!
On a lesser note, I resolve to get a matching tattoo with Marla! I resolve to blog more- free therapy! I resolve to go back to pole dancing! I resolve to look up any questions I have about keeping house in the Martha Stewart Housekeeping handbook!
All of these things may or may not happen, and I resolve to let go and be okay with whatever is on the path for me and the people I love!