Saturday, September 27, 2008

"You can't stop the avalanche as it races down the hill..."

Some random things while I wait for Pete to come watch "Heroes" with me (we had to DVR it because we could not watch it together on Monday night!!)

1. As I Twittered, I like to drink soda out of the fancy wine glasses we got for our wedding! I hate wine, I think it tastes like sour butt. The closest thing to wine I like to drink is Boone's Farm Wine, and I had to stop drinking that because...well, really, because nobody over the age of 21 actually drinks that dreck! So, what's a girl to do? I hate wine, but I LOVE LOVE LOVE our pretty etched Mikasa glasses! And I LOVE LOVE LOVE my Diet Coke. So, there you go!

2. Anna has really been into listening to Broadway music when she's in the car with me! She's learned pretty much all of the words to Legally Blonde, and now she's moved on to Hairspray! Every now and then I hear her singing "Mama, I'm a Big Girl Now" when she's playing with her Barbies and it's the funniest thing ever! It kind of makes me feel like I've made a difference to her world by giving her an appreciation of theatre! Maybe, now that she will be five (!) on her next birthday, I'll take Anna and Ellie to a stage show!

3. In the past month, I have torn through a huge stack of books, and spent WAY too much money at the brand-new Barnes and Noble that opened up in Cherry Hill! So far, the best thing I have read has been "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch. It's the story of a professor from Carnegie Mellon University who specialized in virtual reality. He talks about achieving your childhood dreams, something he was able to do. And thank goodness he did, because his life was cut way too short. It made me want to change my way of existing to a way of really, really living. You can watch his last lecture on You Tube, and I think it will be the most positive 76 minutes you'll spend this week.

4. Just so you don't think it's all heaviness and life-changing literature I gravitate to, I'll also have you know that I read Tori Spellings bio, "sTori Telling". And I really enjoyed that one, too! :-)

5. Now it's time for Heroes!!! Yeeeee!!!!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

"I was a baby when I learned to suck, but you have raised it to an art form..."


Why do you make me do it? Why do you make me have to go on (blogged) rants and say horrible words like "C. U. Next Tuesday", "psycho bitch" and "whore"?

This is a special message to people who continue to enrage me, to act as if they have a black abyss inside of their body, where there should be, oh, say, human organs! To the people who should know better, who have, in fact, been in a place so dark themselves that they should know first hand what it is like for others to be in the same place. But, I guess some people are so selfish and so disgusting and so truly horrible they will never see the way they are. I honestly just feel sorry for people like that.

I put a piece of poetry up on my creative writing blog, you can feel free to check it out, it's pretty much sums up the way I am feeling.

In the meantime, good luck with your life. Not that you know what you are missing, but you have been written off for good.

(And no, unless you already know who I am talking about, I can't tell you. This is just my passive-aggressive way of calling out people who need it! As if a bitch like me should judge anyway, LOL!!!)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

"You may need me there to carry all your weight, but you're no burden I assure..."

It's Tuesday, and the week has already been an unbelieveable one!

Greg went back into the hospital on Sunday, when the visiting nurse that came to Greg and Shel's house, took his blood pressure and found it to be too high. So, off to the ER we went- straight to HUP this time, in the hopes that his neuro docs would be willing to re-evaluate him.

I can't go into too many details about our experience- mainly because there is only so often I can use the words "retards", "douchebags", and "useless". We were there from just before 5pm until after 3am, and it was a long night of questions, tests, chaos, and craziness. I do want to say however, that our ER nurse Megan was absolutely outstanding and our anchor. If it hadn't been for her, a horrible night would have been even worse. All I can say is that I do not think HUP is a very nice place. Greg is back as an inpatient now, and hopefully will be home is a few days. And, as usual, I can not help but marvel at the stregnth my sister Shel has shown. She may crack a bit, but she just slaps some spackle on it and keeps going. In the meantime though, please keep my family, who I love so much, in your prayers. They are constantly in mine.

The weather took a turn for the cooler this week- I think fall is finally on the way! My Uggs look out at me from my closet all summer, all sad and lonely! I think this is one of my favorite times of year. I love feeling the crispiness in the air and seeing the leaves start to get the first hints of color. Of course, this year the air has a melencholy feel to it, but it's still a reminder that the world keeps turning and always has so much to offer.

Things are sometimes so hard, and all anyone has are the people around them to get them through it. Sometimes, chaos and sadness can bring out the ugly in people. I know that sometimes, just being out of coffee can bring out the ugly in me, and make me take things out on the people I love when I don't mean to (mainly Pete!). It's so easy to point fingers and lay blame when things are not going the way you want them to. Hopefully, everyone can gain some perspective and be able to understand each other- probably a completely futile hope, but one I am hoping for just the same.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

"I'll get right back to you once I get my disguise on"

Some randomness:

1. My amazing friend Mandy got married this weekend! I was lucky enough to be asked to be a bridemaids, and it was such a pleasure to share in Mandy and her new husband Taylor's day! The wedding was a blast, even though her adoreable dad Hanry didn't get to hear the Chicken Dance! Everyone had a great time and enjoyed being a part of Mandy and Taylor's love! And Mandy looked GORGEOUS!!! I think she would have worn her dress on the plane ride to their honeymoon if she could! I can relate- I didn't take my wedding dress off until 5am!! Even though it was hot and weighed a thousand pounds, taking it off meant the fairy tale of the day was over. And Mandy really was an absolute princess on her wedding day! I was so happy for her!

2. Greg is coming home from the hospital on Tuesday! He's been there for just under a month, since right before Pete and I got back from our honeymoon. He's changed so much from his illness- if Pete and I were getting married tomorrow, I don't think Greg would be able to walk down the aisle. It's always going to be a part of my heart that Greg- and EVERYONE we love- was there for our wedding day. Shelly continues to amaze me with how much strength she has shown, and our family continues to make me so proud of all the support they have shown. Ever since Greg drove me home from work one time and told me that Pete had fun on one of our early dates (That meant he was talking about me to his family!!!!!!) Greg's been a fave of mine- I always felt like he was rooting for us! And now that he's my brother-in-law...well, family is family. And I have been so blessed in mine. So just continue to pray for Greg's health and for Greg, Shelly and the girls to get through this.

3. I am trying to learn to cook! I made breakfast for my family a few Sunday's ago. Breakfast came out okay, but in my nervousness and frenzy of trying to cook, get everything to the table at the same time, I, uh, might have drank my mimosa a little too quickly. In other words, I got drunk off my ass. I'm a lightweight anyway, so a glass of champagne, even one mostly filled with OJ, is all I need. Ooops. But, I have been working on cooking SOBER and have had fun trying out some new things and planning meals!! Sigh. Leave it to me.

4. My good friend Kim and her husband Aaron- who was the winner of the Next Food NEtwork Star!- got some really exciting news!! Aaron's show, "Big Daddy's House", which had a six-show run as part of his deal as the winner of TNFNS, was picked up for another 13 episodes starting in January! We are all so proud of Aaron, and believe me when I tell you that this could not have happened to a better person and better family!

5. I am tired and ready to go to bed.

The End.

Monday, September 8, 2008

"It's just another manic Monday, I wish it was Sunday"

So, this has become my Monday evening ritual while Pete is doing fireman stuff.
I watch this:

And then, in order to cleanse my filthy soul of the smut of Gossip Girl, I watch this:

After all of that fun, I'll do some cleaning (tonight's project, the bathroom- how does that get so grody so fast?), give my cat some lovies and then head off to bed.

The only problem is that right now, I head off to bed by myself on Mondays. And, to be honest, most of the other days of the week. I don't know why I expected marriage to completely change things, but we are on completely different schedules. Our honeymoon feels like a THOUSAND years ago, not three weeks ago! And, of course, I know that it could be alot worse- my heart is so heavy with all of the sadness and hurt and worry and sickness surrounding the people that I care so much about. So I try to hang in there but sometimes it is SOOOOO lonely.

Thankfully, there are the few moments that we do get to spend that mean so much. So much has changed since I met Pete in 2000, but we still always end up cracking up with laughter when we talk, and that's something that hasn't changed from buddies to great friends all the way through husband and wife, and I hope it never does. It's difficult now, but we truly have so many blessings, and even hope to add more blessings in time.

Sometimes, it's hard for me to see my blessings without feeling so horrible, so guilty, that the people I love most in the world are battling the way they are. It's hard to see that underneath it all, there are still so many small blessings: the way the kids are all growing so fast and so brilliantly, the excitement of a new home on the horizon, career growth. Even the chance to learn just what kind of stuff you are made of, even if you feel like dandelion fluff- like a puff of wind would blow you to pieces. The people I know are so amazing and filled with strength and fire, and I am so, so lucky to know and love them.

So, while I'm not sure how my rundown of my Monday night ritual became a cleansing of my thoughts- I guess that's just where I am today. Now, it's off to hang with the Gosselin's and with the mystery fuzz that forms in my bathroom (which I think is a combo of cat fur and towel fluff, but really, what the hell is that all about?).

I bid you a good night.


Thursday, September 4, 2008

"Vacation, all I ever wanted..."

I just thought I'd share some more honeymoon pics! On this week of everyone going back to school, I thought it might be fun to think back to our vacation!

This was the lobby of the resort! It was all open air and had a huge staircase that lead down to the main area, where you could set up trips, visit the bar(s), and have meals at some of the restaurants! We were greeted with a glass of champagne as soon as we got off the bus!

Our room! It was humongo!!

Sometimes you just need to show off your coconuts!

It's a Giant Chess Board!

We took alot of pictures of ourselves!

...and lots of pics of the creepy crawlies we saw! This guy was one of my favorites! I put our room key (the size of a credit card) down next to him to show how teeny he was! I have no idea how this little guy made it all the way to the third floor!

We took tons of pictures of the gorgeous Dominican beach, where we spent many hours relaxing, swimming, talking, and enjoying many frosty beverages!

We got to meet so many fun people on our trip, like fellow newlyweds Mike and Jen and Marc and his fun family who were in from England!

This is one of my favorite pictures of Pete and I, taken after we walked back from our romantic dinner on the beach. After this, we headed back to our room, got undressed and into bed...and flipped on the TV so we could watch Michael Phelps win his eighth gold medal, LOL!! I guess we're sports fans even on our honeymoon!

And this is how we felt when it was time to go home:

All in all, it was an amazing trip and we had the time of our lives! It's back to the real world now- of work and school and laundry and not seeing each other as much as we would like. But with the blessing of God and a little bit of luck, we have a lifetime together to experience so many more things together!