Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Don't you dare change a thing...

First things first- the winner of the 4 pack of tickets to the amazing Liberty Science Center!

Drumroll, please! 


Hooray! The winner (thanks to Random.org and Rafflecopter!) is Carolyn Levin! I know her sweet son will have a fabulous time at the LSC! Congrats! And, of course, a huge shout out and thank you to the Liberty Science Center and my dear, sweet friends at Jersey Moms Blog for allowing me to share our love of the Liberty Science Center with all of you! 

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The weekend was fun and busy, kicking off with a friends and family performance at cheer on Friday night. The kids have worked so hard and look so cute in their uniforms! PJ loves to perform, and I love seeing the light in his face glow! Saturday morning brought the return of soccer! It was a very cold, very windy morning, but the sun was shining and the kids seemed happy to be back on the field. PJ has a nice group of friends joining him, which means I have extra mama fun on the sidelines! The best part? PJ's amazing Buddies from last season were back and waiting for PJ to arrive! The only caveat was that it was freaking FREEZING outside. PJ kept taking breaks to be snuggled because he was so cold! 

Despite the cold, the arrival of soccer means that Spring is here! On the first slightly warm day, PJ asked to go to the ocean. The kid has warm weather on the brain, and who can blame him? I am looking forward to lots of outside time and amazing adventures with my best guy! 

In the meantime, here's a few pictures from our weekend! 


Some shots from the cheer show! I can't believe the season is almost over! I have come to love this group so much, and the mamas aren't bad, either!


I actually didn't manage to get a good shot of PJ, but I absolutely love this picture of PJ's soccer teammate and classmate!


These are from the annual Palm Sunday pancake breakfast at Pete's fire department. PJ eats his weight in sausage every year, and gets his dose of checking out the fire trucks and rescue boats. As you can see, he brought along the Sodor Construction Crew. As one does.  


Friday, March 27, 2015

Everything's A-Okay!

Last weekend, my little family headed up the New Jersey Turnpike to one of our favorite places, the Liberty Science Center

The LSC was hosting an event for bloggers, giving me a rare chance to offer the benefits of writing to my husband and son, who also love the LSC! We arrived and checked in with Teicia and Cristie, two of my favorite Jersey Girls, and headed to a conference room for lunch, some hands-on activities for the kids, and the chance to meet Elmo! PJ was excited and apprehensive- I think seeing Elmo in all of his furry glory was a little overwhelming. He gave him a quick snuggle, but seemed more content to smile and wave from an acceptable distance! 



Elmo was visiting as part of the Sesame Street Presents: The Body exhibit, now showing at the LSC. Bright, accessible and interactive, The Body teaches young learners all about the human body in a fun, age-appropriate manner. Stations such as The Count's Organ Organ (my favorite- so funny and cute), Digestion With Oscar, and Your Amazing Body with my son's favorites, Bert and Ernie, kept PJ interested and entertained as he learned all about how his insides and outsides work. There was even a replica of the famous steps at 123 Sesame Street, and seeing my son on that iconic stoop connected his childhood with mine in such a sweet way. Sesame Street was such a huge part of my childhood and life as an early learner. It so so exciting for PJ to have the same opportunities, and Sesame Street Presents: The Body offered him the chance to experience Sesame Street in ways that I did not.



We also had the chance to return to a favorite exhibit, Beyond Rubik's Cube! Everything you ever wanted to know about the ins and outs of the most famous puzzle of the 80's is right here! The activities range from simple enough for my 5 year old (4 at his first visit) to complex enough for an adult. PJ is a fan of puzzles, so this hands-on exhibit was right up his alley! You will need to rush if you want to catch this one- Beyond Rubik's Cube will leave the LSC on April 19th!


Full disclosure: The LSC offers a multi-million dollar experience and what does PJ find to play with?

Yup. That's a stool.


Another new installation at the LSC is the incredible Infinity Climber! Suspended in air 35 feet over the main atrium and created from 64 "petal-like platforms," the Infinity Climber twists and turns, looking much like a giant metal vine that has bloomed from the walls of the LSC. It is both huge and lovely, and offers guests the opportunity to navigate it's maze-like structure and get moving! Completely encapsulated in 19 miles of hand-threaded wire, your family can scale its heights safely.  The last time we were at the LSC, the Infinity Climber was in its beginning stages of being built. Seeing it completed was so much fun, and PJ loved it!


You can win a 4 pack of tickets to the Liberty Science Center! It's the perfect day trip to entertain the whole family during Spring Break! The contest will open at midnight tonight (March 27th) and will close at 11:59pm on Sunday (March 29th). You could have FREE TICKETS IN YOUR HANDS as soon as April Fool's Day- and that's no joke! 
Just use the widget below to enter! 




 These cuties are from the Our Hudson Home exhibit!




Saturday, March 14, 2015

I can see all obstacles in my way...


Before we get started, have you entered the MeriMint Giveaway? This is your chance to win a custom-designed piece by Philadelphia-area designer Meri Dorfner, plus a $30 credit to shop away at her gorgeous Etsy boutique! You can CLICK HERE for the 4-1-1 on how to enter! The contest ends in four days, so get to it! Don't miss your chance! 
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It's Friday the 13th. I am ensconced at a table at Barnes & Noble, trying to write and relax without the distraction of my tv, naps, my cat, etc. The only problem is that now I am distracted by the overwhelming urge to buy a book. Oh, well. At least I'm not falling victim to my couch and today's episode of The Young and the Restless, as I am wont to do when I'm home. So we'll call it a wash. 

PJ eating a pizza he made himself at
his buddy Gabi's birthday party! 
I fled here in search of coffee and relaxation after an emotional week. It started with a meeting at PJ's school to talk about his placement for next year when he begins kindergarten. He is in a transitional year, so there will be re-evaluations and decisions made and his school situation could look very different next year should we choose to stay where we are now. Pete and I know what we would like for PJ as his parents, and we know what the schools have to offer. There could be any number of outcomes after he has completed his evaluations, but in the meantime it is a stressful guessing game, and the results could have us scrambling to move and get PJ in a new school district by the end of the summer. 

This was also the week that PJ's ABA therapy was scheduled to start again. After a poor experience with our first provider and the usual amount of insurance bullshit that comes with anything that has to do with securing treatment for PJ, it had been a long road to get to the point that we were ready to get started again. So, of course, a phone call came on Thursday morning, a few hours before his therapist was to arrive, alerting us to an insurance "glitch" that would delay our first visit. Just as I was hanging up the phone, Pete walked in to tell me our toilet was clogged. 

Dude. 

I burst into tears, of course. I mean, seriously? Between the metaphorical crap and the actual crap, I was up to my neck in it. So I indulged in a good cry, drank a cup of coffee, and rebounded to make some phone calls and get to the bottom of things. Thankfully, the insurance issue was resolved and we are back on track for next week. For now. 

I am a person that is full of contraries. I don't mind the chaos of a messy house, but I hate the chaos of a messy schedule. Not being able to plan, and plan well ahead, does not go over well with my fragile little psyche. So when things like PJ's schooling and therapy schedules are open-ended and up in the air, it makes me crazy (or, rather, crazier). I am not unlike my son in that I don't deal well with transitions. I like to know about them far in advance. When the plan are about my son, I want to see it all in front of me for miles, the good, bad, and the ugly. 

For now, though, it's all out of my hands. The plan is to relax and enjoy the weekend and try to stay out of my own head. Pete is working all weekend so it's just the Boy and I left to our own devices. I think we'll try to find some adventures wherever we can.

Wishing you an adventurous weekend! 

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

May your days be merry...

Just a quick "hello" today!

It's the Time for Mom blog hop today (it wouldn't be Tuesday without it!)! Be sure to link up your own parenting posts, or anything you would like to share with a bunch of cool chicks, and check out some of the amazing posts!

But before we do that, WHO WANTS TO WIN SOMETHING?????


Hell, yes!

MeriMint is the creation of Meri Dorfner, a Philadelphia-area artist (and my cousin)! She created MeriMint to showcase her love of arts and crafts, offering handmade jewelry, fashion accessories and home goods made from upcycled clothing and other media to form her gorgeous Etsy line!

Meri is offering a great giveaway with {...a breezy life} and some of my favorite blogs on the internets! If you're someone that reads here on a regular basis, it's finally paying off! You can win:


  • a $30 gift card to the MeriMint shop
  • a custom-designed piece from Meri
  • and a $10 donation to the charity of your choice, just to spread the joy! 
HUGE thanks to my favorite girls, Steph from  Life According to Steph, Rachel from Can't Google Everything, Mary Beth from Maple Brown Sugar, Louisa from Ice Cream Off Paper Plates, and my sister Marla from Luck Fupus for joining in for the fun!! 



The contest will begin tonight at midnight and end at 11:59pm on March 18th! Enter as many times as you like to increase your chances! The winner will be named by each of the participating bloggers!

GOOD LUCK! Thanks for being such a great friend to this little space!







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Monday, March 9, 2015

Giver of immortal gladness, fill us with the light of day!

I saw a story on the news today about a man who was dancing.

As far as I am concerned, if you feel the groove, you should shake your butt. I have been known to dance in long lines, in the shower, while making breakfast, and on actual dance floors. The Lord knows that I am a terrible dancer but, much like writing, when the spirit hits me I have to let it out! The Lord also knows that I have put on quite a bit of weight as I have aged, but I just shake that extra ass whenever I can.

It never occurred to me that someone might laugh at me while I rock out. Or, rather, it certainly has occurred to me that someone might laugh, but it never occurred to me that someone would out and out shame me in the midst of my joyful groove. But it did happen to someone else, a man who was referred to as a "specimen" and filmed as he danced, stopping when he realized his malicious audience was laughing at him. Joy squashed.

Aren't we better than that, folks?

Let me back up a second. Truth be told, there was a time I might have been the person laughing. I have looked at people in any number of situations and not only judged my head off, but laughed it off, too. Someone could have walked out of their door, thrilled with their outfit/shoes/parenting choices/mullet and I have no way of knowing if that person heard my laughter and if it ruined their day.

Now, we live in an age that allows us to have a mullet catch our eye one second and have our camera phones in our hands the next. Not only is this less subtle, but a nasty comment can be carried through the internet at the push of a button. We can shame someone's joy with behavior that we should be ashamed of ourselves. Not only can we ruin somebody's day, but we can splash the bloodshed across the world with a swipe of the iPhone.

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Picture grabbed from this article from People Magazine
Look at this gentleman's face in that second frame. All of the happiness that spilled over into dance is gone. I can tell you, with no uncertainty, that we do not have the right to make another human being feel that way. Murderers, rapists, people who harm animals, traffic drugs, don't yield to emergency vehicles- there are people and situations for which some hearty, righteous indignation should be held. But we do not have the right to make someone feel like that because you didn't like the dance.

Again, I can tell you that I have been known to reach for the easy laugh. I have hurt someone's feelings. I never meant to, but sometimes I was caught wielding the sword. Since my son was born, and particularly since we learned he has Autism, it's a behavior I have made an effort to work on. I am not 100% cured- just read my Facebook feed when The Voice is on. I'm human, but I've learned that I have no right to cut someone down because they are, also, human. It's not our place to ruin someone's happy. We have no right to kill joy.

If the groove hits you, dance. Don't worry about who is watching. Shake what your mama gave you and shake it like you mean it. If you happen to be the one who is watching, take notes. You were just schooled in joy.

Saturday, March 7, 2015

It's the thrill of the fight...

{musings}

I am sitting on my couch in a quiet house. We had a snow day this week to liven things up, which left me to pick up the aftermath of having a little boy cooped up inside all day. Trains all over, his beloved cat stuffed animals piled up on the couch, and bits of snacks abandoned everywhere. I found an apple slice on his dresser and an animal cracker between the couch cushions. Gross But he returned to school on Friday and we're back to "normal" and hoping like hell that was the last of the snow. At least, I'm hoping.

I know that March comes in like a lion and goes out like a lamb, and that it is only March 6th, but I am really ready for some lamb-like weather. Although this winter was nothing compared to last in terms of snow, it was been a bleak, grey season and I am desperately ready for some sunshine! Playground visits and bike rides and after-dinner walks because it's still light out; I am ready for the new season to start! Bring. It. On.

March is a weird month in general, kind of whishy-washy and transitional. There are no major holidays (St. Patty's Day does not count, weirdos! Unless you have like, a family dinner and get dressed up or something. Then, I beg your pardon.), no real season to make its mark. I can't even bust out my maxi-dress collection.

This year, of course, March is also filled with meetings to discuss what will come next for PJ in regards to his schooling. I am a nervous wreck, of course. There is no real reason to be as of yet, but I find myself very anxious to know what the next step will be as PJ moves into Kindergarten. Last year we were very pleasantly surprised at the plans for PJ, so I try to remember that. But, I am not entirely sure that we will have the same luck this year. Much as I try not to dwell on the possibilities, it is difficult not to. And 'tis the season for special needs moms all over- nothing like IEP time to send us running for the bars!

Not knowing exactly what is around the bend is nerve-wracking, particularly because our next transition could be a big one that will have to be executed quickly. Thankfully, my little family seems to be able to roll with the punches, so we'll just hang on and see what's next.

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

So what?

Five Random Things

1. PJ is very into money lately. He will cut you for a penny. The other day, Pete was trying to scratch lottery cards but PJ kept stealing the coins he was using and promptly putting the stolen coinage in his Thomas piggy bank (it's literally a bank shaped like Thomas the Train, if he were a pig. It is freaking creepy, but the Boy loves it.). I felt that it was a pretty profound social commentary- Pete scratching lottery tickets while PJ saved his money. Things that make you go, hummmm.....

2. I got a new tattoo on Friday! Right now, it's healing and weird, but I love, love, love it! It's a verse from the song "Anthem" by Leonard Cohen. Not my favorite singer, but his lyrics go right through my heart. I first saw this particular quote last year, and I know right away that it would be my next tattoo. Now, it's a permanent reminder that the things that seem broken are really just opportunities to shine. The only problem now is that I keep thinking about other beloved lyrics I can use to fill in the blank spots on that arm! 

3. I have finally realized that I am far too old to simply buy the cheapest skin care products and expect not to look like the old lady from the Hallmark cards. Despite my reservations, I let my sister take me to Ulta and guide me towards an "anti-aging" moisturizer that cost quite a bit more than I usually spend. We'll see how this works out. I do know that my Mom-Mom would be horrified at how I treat my skin. Even in her 80's, she had amazing skin, far better than mine. It's something to strive for! 


4. I need something new to read. I have been on a non-fiction/memoir kick for a few years now, with a few novels slipping in here and there. I loved "This Is Where I Leave You" and "The Book of Joe" by Jonathan Tropper, and I'm looking for something new. I am leaning towards "Still Alice", but open to suggestions! 

5. Kindergarten registration has begun. That means stacks of paperwork, bunches of meetings, IEP's and immunization records. We will have our first meeting to discuss the plans for PJ's kindergarten program next week. I am very nervous about this- I have no real idea what they are thinking or what they will suggest. PJ seems to be at a weird place. He's not quite right for an self-contained setting and not ready for a mainstreamed classroom. Of the two, I'd say he leans more towards self-contained, but still not a perfect fit for that setting. We'll cross each bridge as it comes, I guess, but I find myself very, very anxious about it. 









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Monday, March 2, 2015

Standing at the end of the road, boys, waiting for my new friends to come...

I have made a huge parenting error. I know, try not to fall down from the shock of it all. Truth be told, it's more of an error in my regard of humankind, as opposed to a poor parenting choice. But, I made an error.

PJ is in his first year of inclusion education. Just in case you don't already know, this means that he is in a classroom with both typically developing children and children with special needs. Before that, he had been in a self-contained room (populated with only children with a medical or psychological diagnosis).

At the start of the year, I was nervous. I did not know how the kids would respond to PJ. He does not always answer back when spoken to, his speech is far behind his peers, and he often acts out in a negative way when upset, angry, or challenged. It's sometimes difficult for adults to understand PJ's differences, so I was not sure what to expect from young children.

Early on in the school year, PJ was was among the few children in the room who did not receive an invitation to the birthday party of a fellow classmate. Truth be told, I felt like it was a shitty thing to do to snub a handful of kids. Either invite all of the kids, invite none of the kids, or invite just the boys or just the girls. Really, when it comes down to it, though, it's the prerogative of the parents and there's no law that says one has to like or include every child. As far as I can tell, PJ's feelings were not hurt one way or the other, which took some of the sting out of the wound for me.

The next part is where I made my mistake.

After The Snub, I put all of my protective walls up. I assumed that all of the parents would have the same attitude towards my son, and that his special needs might be too much to handle. I worried that he wouldn't make any friends, and that birthday parties and play dates would elude him as invitations of that nature are facilitated by the parents at that age.

You know what they say about assumptions- they make Brie look like an ass. As the school year went on, I started to see in little ways that if nothing else, I underestimated these sweet, small, young children. One of the kids stopped me at pick-up one day. "Are you PJ's mom? I like PJ. He is so funny!" It didn't occur to me that the kids would think he was funny. I was afraid they would think he was weird, that ambiguous affliction that meant he wasn't quite like them. I wasn't expecting funny.

I had to blur out the face because I am not his mama,
but this sweet one is always so kind to PJ. They are friends. 
A few weeks later, I opened his school folder to find an invitation to a birthday party. This was his first "school friend" invite, not from a family member or the child of one of my friends. My husband, especially, was beside himself. Although he never expressed it, I know that he, too, was afraid that envelope wouldn't come. But it did, and on a Saturday afternoon we took PJ to his first friend birthday party. The kids bounced and played, ate pizza and laughed. PJ talked about the party for a few days after. The whole things was uneventful and exceptional through the eyes of the parents who weren't sure they would ever witness it.

Over the next few weeks, a few more small miracles in the form of envelopes arrived, tucked in to PJ's school folder. At one party, a clump of kids ran up upon our arrival, crying "PJ! We missed you!" Later on, I overheard one of the kids say to the other, "Did you know PJ's favorite color is pink?" I wasn't sure if they would see anything but different, but they know his favorite color. They slid down slides in clumps, PJ sandwiched in the middle.

There will be many more Snubs. They happen to every human through every stage of life. Not everyone will find him to be their cup of tea, and that's okay. That will be a lesson for another day. What I should have known, at nearly 40, is the the Snubs are rarely the Norm. I underestimated the grace these kids had to offer PJ and, even worse, I underestimated the gifts PJ would bring to them.

And there it is: Parenting Mistake #9,530,937,646

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

If I just breathe...

Tonight, sharing the words of one of the many, many, many people who have said the things I think, but more beautifully and more succinctly and with perfection. Happens all the time...

... so, yeah, parenting is hard & beautiful,
and very, very hard & very, very beautiful
and sometimes you just get down on the floor & weep 
& there's no shame in it 
-- tears just saying we're loving deep.

Parenting is hard, not because we're getting it wrong, 
but because we're getting to do holy work
 -- holy work *is* hard work.

That's the miracle of parenting: 

labor never stops & we never stop having to remember to breathe. 
And even the sound of our breathing is saying His name - YHWH.
And all the parents exhaled... and our every breath calls for You to come, Lord, please come -- Come help us to labor over these beloved children, that they'd deliver into the wide expanse of Your fulfilling grace -- 
& never forget their name: Beloved.


Oh, this amazing work that we do as mothers, as parents, as aunts and uncles and Bubbies and Zaydies and Nans and Pops- trying to impart just a tiny bit of the things we know to these little ones in our hands. The mistakes are tattooed on our hearts and the wins are like band-aids. All we can do is try, and love our babies even when it's hard. These lovely words will be with me for a while, and I am so thankful to have stumbled upon them...







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Monday, February 23, 2015

My feelings swell and stretch...

Today was a very Monday-ish Monday. 
It kind of felt like yesterday was Monday and 
Since two Mondays in a row would be a horrible idea that
 should give you some insight into my mood. 
I did not get a spot on the Listen To Your Mother Show.
This was not a shock and was merely a scratch 
on this rash of a day. 
Auditioning was a fantastic experience and there is always next year. 
PJ was tired this morning. 
There wasn't much fire in him today and somehow, 
  that bums me out more than when he's all fire
I think a good nights sleep will fix that, along with 
 a return to the routine the long weekend/snow interrupted.
We are trying to have PJ's ABA therapy re-instated
 after a horrible experience that caused us to end our relationship
 with the agency we had previously used. 
Now, we are back in the Spiral of Rediculousness that is 
 dealing with the insurance company. 
The back and forth of trying to figure out
who is in network
who is not
who has the information regarding either of the former
and how this will all lead to a point where we have
correct
consistant 
therapy for PJ.  
It's something that I truly don't feel like
we should have to dig and dig and dig for
before we hit the treasure box. 
That's what causes the rash on my Monday.
I was hoping for a better start to the week 
after a rough last one. 
And thankfully, it is only Monday. 
The only Monday.